Friday, May 09, 2003
11:53 PM || Two APs down, one more to go! YAY! The AP US History test was alright. I think I did okay. The DBQ was pretty easy and the multiple choice was decent. But maybe my 8 practice tests helped. Haha dude If I don't pass this test I'm gonna be really sad & mad. I actually went back to school after the test because I thought I had to do some ASB stuff, but I found out I didn't have to, so I went to school for nothing. Haha.
After school, I went to the last boys' volleyball game of the season and Varsity won so that was cool. I was a little uncomfortable though cause of some stuff that happened but that's not important. After Varsity played, Jessica took Howard and me to Jamba Juice, and then to Pho to go meet up with Judy. We had a lot of interesting conversations so that was cool. Howard is really weird. Haha. Afterwards, Judy took me home so I could get ready to go watch Junior Miss at the Perfoming Arts Center. I got ready, Jessica came to pick me up, and off we went to go cheer on our girls.
The whole concept of Junior Miss is actually pretty cool. The pageant itself was very entertaining. Jessica, Catherine, Sarah, Liz, Kevin, Daniel Yi, Jinny, Yina, Josie, Berry, Nisha, Harsh, and a lot of other people were there. The girls competing from our school were Audra, Christy, Shibani, Malaka, Sandra, Angeline, Diane, Sital, Esther, Vrinda, and Katherine. Everyone did really well so great job! Congratulations to Angeline for winning the Fitness category. With dance moves like that, I'm not surprised. =) Man but seriously, I thought one of our girls was gonna win. Diane should have won the talent portion fa'sho cause like she wrote an original jazz song which she played the piano to while singing to it at the same time. Now that's what I call talent! Lisa from Whitney won for Jr. Miss so congrats to her. I remember that she was in my cabin bunk for 6th grade camp, since our school went with Leal and she didn't have a room, so she ended up with the Cerritos girls. LoL how coincidental! Man I SOO would have done Jr. Miss if I had a talent. It looks like a lot of fun. But I would have choked on the speech part probably. Malaka was just too cute! Too bad I don't have a talent though.
I think I'm getting used to seeing Him with another girl. At first, it was like, weeirrd. I didn't want to believe it, so I would deny whatever I saw. But I guess now that I always see them around together, I'm adjusting. Yea, it makes me really uncomfortable at times, but hey! What can I say? That's life. I can't always have what I want. The best advice I received was from my cuz Justin, who told me that I should let it go, because if I don't, I'm gonna let it take control of everything in my life. If He knows that I haven't moved on, I give Him the power to hurt me again. There was a lot more that he said but yeah, thanks Justin for listening. =)
I think something is wrong with me. Seriously. I have the worst luck with guys. Am I too passive or something? Do I talk too much? Am I boring? Do I smell bad? I know what it is. Maybe it's commitment that scares guys away. I mean, I'm not gonna continue pursuing something if I didn't don't think that it could work out. Maybe I should back away completely from this. I don't need this crap. Ugh. What am I saying? I'm talking out of my arse. BAH.