Thursday, February 06, 2003

7:18 PM || i haven't blogged in a while. this week has been going by quite smoothly. i'm doing pretty well in my classes-- doing all my work and actually understanding the concepts of math and chem. hurrah. the Ohana family has spent some time together this week as well. great times we have. i love my Ohana. hopefully we'll get to hang out again this 3-day weekend or the next. holidays rock! xD so are you guys up for it or what? i was looking through my event calendar, and i realized how closely the end of the year + the next two dances [sadies & prom] are approaching. sadies sadies sadies. who to ask. i have a person in mind, but i'm not 100% positive if i'm gonna ask him mainly because he's not much of the "dance-type." i don't wanna make him feel uncomfortable or anything of that matter. mmm .. i'll think about it, talk to more friends, and update you on the developments. time for some random brain blurt.

if only i were smarter. if only i had that nice stomach. if only i could win the lottery. if only i could look like her. if only they would understand if only.. lately, i feel like i've been saying the phrase way too much. it seems to flavor every decision i make. what sucks is that it fills me with regret and frustration when i realize that my goals are out of my reach. life is full of "if onlys." something i learned recently was that "if onlys" only mislead us and gives us permission to NOT live up to our full potential. most of the time, we use the phrase to place the blame on something that we have totally no control over. of course, limitations have to be set. however, thinking of what could have been or what could be only keeps us waiting on the sidelines of life. are you one of those people who sit through the day, wondering a million and one "if onlys"? well forget about it because it's not gonna get you anywhere worth going. stop making excuses and start making progress. if there is something holding you back, then get it out of your way. when all you do is daydream and fantasize, you'll never accomplish anything. if you talk the talk, then walk the walk. enough said.