Friday, January 31, 2003

11:20 AM || finals are over! well it's about time really. the start of a new semester approaches us next week. will i keep up with my usual procrastinator-lifestyle? or will i transform into a much more studious student in hopes of establishing a strong high school transcript? [whoah my foot just fell asleep LOL ;P] i have some goals for the rest of the school year. [1] work hard all throughout the semester. even though first quarter grades don't count, i must equally put forth the kind of effort i do during the second quarter. having strong first quarter grades sets the backbone for which my second quarter grades can follow. [2] practice/review for upcoming SATs. i am not at all satisfied with my SAT I scores from sophomore year. i definitely need to crank up the studying a notch-- maybe a couple notches. [3] prepare for AP Exams in May! only about 4 more months until the exams. oh crap. i really gotta study so i can pass them, or else it would have been a total waste of being in those rigorous classes for the entire year. well not really a "waste," because i have formed extraordinary friends and great memories in those classes. but yes, a waste in the $80+ spent for just taking each exam. [4] attempt to rebuild the OHANA family. sadly, it seems like it only lasted a mere couple of weeks, that family of friends in which i called OHANA. we haven't hung out (all of us-- not just three) for so long! but i guess true friends don't have to be with each other in order to stay friends. the love is there-- unconditional and forever. just know that when the world turns its back against you guys, i will always be standing here with open arms. [5] make the most out of the last couple of months the seniors have until graduation. jay, howie, scott, pammy, george, and the rest of the seniors are all gonna be gone after mid-June. the friendships/relationships i have formed with these people are really amazing. of course, i'll be happy for them when they finally graduate, but at the same time, it saddens me that they all aren't gonna be there next year to guide me in my walk through life. so i hope to spend a lot of time with the seniors this semester. [6] have all the drama at the Academy disappear! everyday at work, it seems like some new drama has erupted over this and that. why can't we all just love each other? for goodness sakes, these are 6th-8th graders fighting over guys and whatnot. [7] don't get involved in anymore drama myself. the only good drama is the kind on tv. but when it actually hits you in your life life, it's contagious. once another person gets involved, the chain keeps going, and by the end of the day, everyone is involved! drama not only is stupid, but all it does is make friends betray other friends and cause a lot of stress. DUMB DRAMA! [8] be able to hug all of my friends comfortably. haha this one is kinda one of my dumb goals. lol! edward you know what i'm talking about. hehehe. *winks* [9] re-dedicate myself into being a "health/exercise freak." i really haven't been watching my weight, eating habits, exercise patterns (what exercise patterns? lol) since about the beginning of the school year. i gotta start working out again every morning, as well as jogging at night whenever i have the chance. hopefully by the end of the year, i'll have a body i am more satisfied with than now so that my self-esteem can soar to maximum heights. [10] last but definitely not least, grow closer to my family. seems like i have really strayed from bonding with the brothers and sisters all my life. sad, but true. i hope that by the end of the year, i will be that older sister that they can turn to for anything. and that reassured, i can also talk to them about whatever problems i have in my life.

so i guess those are really what i am aiming for. of course, it's gonna be merely impossible to do all of these things at once, but it doesn't hurt to try. hopefully i can have some sort of guidance from the people whom i love-- to always strive for my goals and push my hardest even when it seems that i can't push any more. if i slack off this second semester, i'm gonna feel like my whole academic life went to waste. i mean, i've gotten this far already; there has to be some sort of motivation in me to do even better this time. i have a lot of good things going for me (well at least that's what i tell myself), so giving up now isn't gonna do anything except hinder a succesful future. ..sigh.. too much thinking. i need a break.

[edit] i got a B in trig! yay! dude i so thought i was gonna get a C that's why. so heck yeah for me! so i think my GPA for this first semester is 3.33 or 3.5, depends on what i get for ASB. and weighted, that comes out to be 4.0 i think. pretty happy with my grades. although i know i could have done better. hopefully, next semester will turn out the way i want it to come out. and that i will end junior year knowing i tried my hardest. ;) [/edit]